Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Depth perception

I find that whenever I don't have a clearly defined plan, I don't get anywhere. - Laura C.

The teacher's lounge is a veritable buffet of spontaneous wisdom (and unique conjugations of the word "sh#t").
My colleagues are a unique collection of workaholics...true martyrs to the mission*. But sometimes I wonder if keeping our eyes on the prize keeps us from seeing where we are.

"Depth perception is the visual ability to perceive the world in 3 dimensions." According to Wikipedia (the obvious authority on all things) "it is a trait common to higher animals". And I...am a higher animal. I think.

In the physical world of vision, images projected onto the retina are 2-dimensional, but are perceived in 3 dimensions. I've realized that it is the same in the philosophical realm. If we're not conscious about it, we "higher animals" can fall victim to 2-dimensional vision. Seeing ourselves only in the light of what IS, rather than what can be.

I find myself guilty of 2-dimensional vision.
  • 1st dimension - who I understand myself to be
  • 2nd dimension - who other people think I am
  • 3rd dimension - who I COULD be
  • I think depth perception can change my reality.


    The pragmatic in me (currently sharing residence with the procrastinator and perfectionist....an unholy triune) forces me to narrow my focus to the reality I CAN control.

    Time for a little backwards planning.

    I could realize my vision of becoming an academic and published writer by getting my master's degree. The course of choice (not of practicality) is an MFA in Creative Writing with a focus on Creative Nonfiction.

    As of right now, I have absolutely no way of paying for it and no time to DO it. Oh and I don't have any money (which I may have mentioned earlier, but am repeating for emphasis...you know, epanorthosis**)

    Ignoring these facts, I have narrowed my options down to 3 MFA programs, and then narrowed things down to what I have to do this week to get in one of 'em.

    Step 1 - Apply for a fee reduction to take the GRE
    Step 2 - Research financial aid options
    Step 3 - Write a personal statement
    Step 4 - Pray

    Heading off into the 3rd dimension. You with me?


    *see www.yesprep.org then add 50-hr work weeks, community service projects, week-long field trips, conviction to make learning meaningful, limited resources and higher academic standards...and you've got yourself a YES teacher.
    ** epanorthosis: n. a rhetorical device in which something just said is repeated and stronger or more apt words are substituted. www.thefreedictionary.com

    1 comment:

    Franko said...

    Wow!! You really created great "perception" with this piece!! I really enjoyed the relevance of the description and the imagery you used, very creative! Guess I should read a better class of literature--LOL

    At any rate you know my take on the situation. Take some time off from the noble profession so that you can get your MFA. Then you can come back and kick in a few doors with your refined skills! I'm really convinced that you should actually get a novel or two going real soon!!